LMM from withIN

I had been officially ill for over eight years.

Pain was permanent, overwhelming.

It was an entity that resided in every atom of my being.

Pain was so diverse, so creative, so intense that it felt hilarious in a Monty Python kind of way. As if I was living inside a really bad quality movie in which an insane, fluorescent green and evil force enjoyed destroying me, each second.

I started to wonder why my biological support, my body, was rejecting me so forcefully.

It was a long process.

Although I was 40, I felt ancient ... not old.

I was dependent on other people to help me get dressed, to comb my hair, to accompany me outside my place, to assist me in ... everything that is absolutely common like holding a fork to eat.

I was under very strong, diverse, intense medication. It enlarged over the years.

Medication did not work, as it did not tackle pain. It did not return Humanity to my being. 

My condition together with the medication, the continuous calls to ER, to hospital, to doctors. They made me feel abused and rendered me unsuitable.

Unsuitable to myself.

To my family.

To my profession.

To my own Life.

Unsuitable to others: how were other people supposed to act while facing someone that is decaying rapidly towards ... a strange unknown that is surely unpleasant, sad, gloomy?

I felt outside of my existence.

I had no control over it. No say whatsoever.

I almost got to identify my person with the pain. In fact, there were many instances when I was just that … the condition, the limitations, the indignity. Most of all I was loss, permanent definite loss.

Although I had no actual life, no activity, no fun, no friends, no contact with others, no ability to create I still felt, deep down, that it made no sense.

I still believed that I was an individual. I felt that I could find my way out of this immense, cold storm. I had no clue as to how to get out … though.

I was diagnosed with a whole bunch of stuff, fibromyalgia included.

Pain prevented me from everything.

If somebody pressed slightly my body, I would feel horror and cry with pain. Despite the fact that I’m not given to drama, at all.

So, I found my Life Mentor: Pedro Proff.

When I started working with Pedro Proff under the Life Mentoring Method® guidelines, I couldn't inhale deeply because it caused severe chest and back pain.

I hardly walked, needed the support of a walking stick.

I was taught by my Life Mentor how to get up from the stretcher by placing my arm on it folded at the elbow and then moving slowly and carefully upwards and to side.  Why? Because I simply could not get up and out of the stretcher alone, at first.

Life Mentoring Method®  brought me back.

To Life.

To being with Dignity.

To building, creating, moving, breathing, feeling.

Feeling.

Being.

Believing.

It is a process that is very hard work. Very hard indeed.

You need to commit as much as your Life Mentor.

You need to trust that, what is being asked of you, is truly crucial.

The Life Mentor is always there to help you.

To work with you so that you will find the person yoU need to be. That individual yoU want to be.  And, in fact, you will become that being through this process, this movement with your Life Mentor.

I had pain when my Mentor Pedro Proff did acupuncture or massage or assisted movement. I felt pain when we talked about all that hurt in the past, in the present, in the future, within and out ...

A whole universe of difficult memories, experiences, thoughts, feelings, actions was addressed. That universe is faced, now.

Yes, it is hard!

The fact is that one day I was lying on the stretcher and I realized that my Mentor Proff had moved my leg upwards, folded it by the knee towards my abdomen.  I felt no pain. That was the precise moment when I felt, I acknowledged, I knew that I was going to live. 

I knew then that Life was real for me.

I have learnt through this time working with Life Mentoring Method®, in particular with Pedro Proff, that BODY IS KEY.

Movement, training, posture, self-knowledge about your body are KEY to Life, to Health. So is nourishment, eating adequately, sleeping, breathing, walking, meditating. It is about an inner discipline that translates care for oneself. Respect for our own Body, for Nature.

Life Mentoring Method®  is a choice that represents the intent to educate ourselves to be hUman with a heArt, with Joy.

The Method involves an approach that is WHOLE. In the sense that the Life Mentor and you are working in this path with whole truth, commitment, trust, belief. Also because you are seen as a whole by your Life Mentor. You are not simply a "patient". You are not just someone with a condition. You are a person who has a background, a present, a future. A person who began in a family, in a society and therefore suffered impact from them. You have skills, abilities. You have difficulties and dislikes.

You are not one sided.

Your Life Mentor is also a person. A person who is whole and is dedicated to helping you, with no preconceived ideas or procedures.

In the Method, the Life Mentor is deeply aware that you can bring about all that seems impossible, unlikely, unreasonable ... because you can. You can work in order to exist as the best person in you. It is a matter of joint work which is thrilling, hard, continued and fun.

I am free from medication.

I train physically.

I am the person that was lost ... stronger in fact.

I am myself.

Life Mentoring Method® permits me to run, practice yoga, work, create when just a year ago my reality was

       "I need to have a glass a water but I can't move. I'll wait for someone to help"

       "I need to make this call but I can't hold the phone"

       "I want to draw but I can't sit and hold the pencil still"

       "I feel like going out but it isn't reasonable ... I don't have balance, I might fall".

In Mathematics the infinity is associated with the universe, with distances that separate stars, planets. The infinity is, in some way, unmeasurable and immense.

Well, the infinity is in yoU. It lies in yoUr ability to educate yourself and move forward.

Life Mentoring Method® is a choice by which you decide to educate your body, your emotions, your heart, your behavior. Education that will remain in yoU as grounds for practice of yoUr Life with quality, joy, peace, integrity, fun.

My experience as a mentee of Pedro Proff is this that I’ve told you about. 

But … we’ll talk further about this journey  :-)